In my earlier post I mentioned that it would be my last update for 2007. It turns out I had something more to say with only one day to go before 2008. I want to get all this out of my system before a new year comes rolling along so I can talk about something else come Tuesday.
2007 has got to be one of the worst years I’ve had so far, both personally and professionally. The year started with much optimism, specially with regards to the komiks industry. I felt that 2007 would be a big year for komiks, and although it was indeed a significant year, I felt nothing but disillusionment. It is this year I discovered how dirty the local komiks industry is, and that there are people here who will stop at nothing, because of their greed and hunger for glory and recognition, to trample on ordinary hardworking people to get what they want. It’s more frustrating to see that there are other people who are blinding themselves to this for whatever reason. I don’t know if they’re just clueless or just don’t care because they’re getting something out of it. There are many other things I have learned, things I can never talk about on this blog that have simply horrified and disgusted me.
Those looking for someone to blame for the fate of Sterling’s komiks and are pointing fingers here and there, you simply have NO idea. You absolutely have NO idea. And if I can laugh at your ignorance I would, but I’m a little too bummed to do even that.
If you want to look for something to blame, all you have to do is look at the komiks themselves, and just let your brain function. That’s all it is. And if you can’t find anything wrong with them, it’s best that you are never placed in any kind of position to further efforts to revive this industry.
I was pretty demoralized because of that for much of the year, and I have to say it did affect the work I did. I also lost my dog, who I considered a part of my family, and that bummed me out even more. I was only able to finish one issue of Elmer, when I intended to finish the entire series. I was hoping to launch two regular series this year, but both have come to a grinding halt. It was probably a mistake to spend so much time with webcomics this year because it really ate into the time I needed for my paying print work. I probably won’t be back there again, except to serialize something I’ve already done, like Wasted.
I stopped the Komikero meetings for the latter half of the year because I was either too busy, or it just didn’t feel right. I felt that I would not have been good company. I started to answer email less and less. I haven’t checked my email in a while now.
Thank goodness for the good things that came my way this year because without them, I would have gone completely quackers.
In spite of my early hesitation, teaching one term at Benilde was one of the best things to happen to me this year. It was a great experience, and I came away every Saturday feeling really good.
Starting TIMAWA for Buzz Magasin was also a great thing, and it was something I really needed creatively. It felt really good finishing Elmer #3 for Komikon, but I hoped I could have finished it earlier. But coming out with it was really nice nevertheless.
Finishing Humanis Rex was bittersweet. I felt great satisfaction upon finishing the entire series, something I had worked since 2005. I hope I could have done it better, but at least the lessons I learned here would inform the work I would do on Timawa, as well as The Marvelous Adventures of the Amazing Dr. Rizal.
Helping Ilyn get to watch and meet Taylor Hicks was a high point of the year. She’s a huge fan, and it was great seeing how happy she was (and still is) for the past few weeks.
I want to end 2007 on this high note, and just put all that ugly stuff behind me. 2008 is a new year and I hope it’s a better one. Coincidentally, 1997 was also a bad year for me, and 1998 was a great year, a fantastic year for me actually. I wish 2008 would be a great and fantastic year as well. 8 after all, is a favorite number of mine.